Today's parable is a wonderful trap. We can easily find ourselves, like a teacher I heard of saying to her class, 'thank God children that we are not like the Pharisee'. Catching ourselves on we might then say, 'well, actually, even if I'm not a sinner like the Publican, I'm a more sophisticated kind of sinner, more like the Pharisee, with more interesting sins, things like pride and self-righteousness and hypocrisy'. Either way we are thinking of ourselves rather than God and that seems like the opposite of what prayer is about. We are trying to solve spiritual problems mathematically when they can only be solved in suffering, prayer and love.

The suffering, death and resurrection of Jesus is the great reversal in which all these teachings are fulfilled. In the garden of Gethsemane we will see him, a humble and humbled man brought to his knees by life. We are told that the prayer of the humble man pierces the heavens and it seems as if this prayer also is one that is not answered: 'let this cup pass me by'. But his other, deeper prayer is answered, of course, 'not my will but yours be done'. In his mathematics of the spiritual life the Pharisee needed to compare himself with the Publican as if it was some kind of competition. The humble person, on the other hand, compares himself only with God and thereby knows his own nothingness and his own greatness.
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